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For Anyone Who Sometimes Wishes They Were Dead

It’s not that weird.

Emily Jennings
4 min readMar 14, 2023
Are you sometimes wishing you were dead?
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We all go through episodes of darkness. We all question existence. Or…do we? I assume that we all do these things. But how would I know, since it’s so taboo for people to talk about this topic?

I certainly have moments where I question why I’m even here. Life seems so hard and I want to just check out. I see that death isn’t the end, so why is it so bad to think about how I might make it to the other side? People freak out if you say you wish you were dead because they think you’re trying to hurt yourself, but if they could only understand — it’s not the same thing at all.

It’s not a bad thing if you wish you were dead sometimes. It’s just an extension of wondering “why was I born?” and other existential questions. It’s a sign that you’re self-reflective.

I don’t recommend staying in this dark mindset, however. It will only lead you down a darker road. But if you do find yourself wishing you didn’t exist, don’t be too hard on yourself.

It’s a sign that you understand death.

Contemplating your existence is healthy. It’s a sign that you understand death and that you know what you are. You’re a soul having a human experience.

Death is nothing to be afraid of.

Death isn’t scary. This life was always going to end one day — everything in this dream is temporary. You were never guaranteed any amount of time here in this story. But your soul endures.

The soul pervades many lifetimes. It exists outside time and space. Being “dead” for us means very little to the soul. So, wishing you were dead is only the ego’s expression of the enduring nature of the soul. It’s a morbid way of saying you wish you were a spirit without a body. Why is that bad?

Yes, society frowns on you. So what?

People are terrified of death. They don’t want to talk about it. They spend a lot of time, energy, and money trying to avoid it. They have themselves convinced that we’re all entitled to live forever.

They think that talking about something that is inevitable for every single one of us is…

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Emily Jennings
Emily Jennings

Written by Emily Jennings

I am here to confirm you're not crazy. Your life has meaning and nothing is an accident. | IG: @wellness_oneness | www.wellnessoneness.com

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