I Have an Irrational Fear of Leaving My Body

I don’t think this is normal.

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Almost a year ago now, someone important to me died. This is someone so pivotal to my existence, that nothing about my life has been the same and things only get weirder and more fascinating as I evolve on my path, and all because of him.

Right after he died, I had a vision of what happened to him. He lost consciousness and suddenly found himself hovering above his body looking down, and it was over. That life was over.

But one life is just one story. There are always more adventures.

Although I have a total understanding of these realities and that death isn’t the end, I am still scared of my story ending in the blink of an eye. Can anyone really be okay with it? We get pretty involved in these plots we live. I feel like there’s still so much to do.

In the past eleven months, I’ve been called on by spirits from another realm many times to come with them. I fall asleep and find myself looking at them face to face in my room a little while later, beckoning to me with outstretched hands. Sometimes I hear a voice telling me to enter the portal they’ve opened. I am terrified.

All I do is pray to learn how to leave my body and travel the stars, but when it comes down to it, I recoil in fear. When…