Existence, Consciousness, and Reality

I’m Convinced All of This Isn’t Real

Nap more because waking life is exhausting

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I woke up from a nap today and landed myself into an existential crisis of sorts. It’s funny how naps are different from night-sleeping. We’re so used to waking up in the morning and forgetting where we’ve just been. But when we nap, it feels different waking up — at least for me. I wake up from naps these days and I’m like, “holy shit, am I back here again?”

My dreams during naps are the most vivid. Always. I hang out with dead loved ones, my spirit guides, I go to Disney World’s Magic Kingdom and ride the rides without waiting in line, and run around with superheroes fighting bad guys. Can you blame me if when I wake up, I’m like “good grief”?

Today I was really hit hard when I woke up. I felt the “other side” so strongly. This isn’t real. This isn’t the most real, I should say. This is an illusion right here. This is a puppet show. The puppeteers are our higher selves who are over there pulling the strings. When we sleep, they get a coffee break.

This is the set of Mister Rogers. We’re surrounded by puppets in our houses and backyards, and they are really convincingly self-aware. They have their own problems and relationships, and they’re trying…