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Why Ego Death is So Hard
A spiritual meltdown and a realization that leads to grief.
A few years ago, something happened to me that was so catastrophic that I lost all hope. I lost faith in the universe. Any interest and excitement I’d ever had about anything seemed to disappear. I felt like I’d died inside — but in reality, only my ego died and left the shell of a person that I needed to reinvent. And that is when my “new life” began.
People associate the term “ego death” with varying definitions, and I don’t agree with all of them. However, one thing that is true is that it involves grief. It’s the same kind of grief that happens to you when a person close to you dies. But what’s happening instead is that you died. Your old self imploded, and the new self hasn’t yet arrived. You’re in a void.
Let me explain.
The Void Inside
In this process of ego death, you’ve stopped caring about everything you cared about before. It’s terrifying to have nothing to occupy the mind in day-to-day life, as most people do. It’s all you’ve ever known until now. But this experience brings a kind of emptiness that cannot adequately be expressed in words.
You could be content while meditating and removed from society, but as a human, you must still care about something in…
